If you’re like me, you could call yourself a people pleaser and would do anything in the world to make others happy and to avoid conflict. Since you go above and beyond for others, you just push aside your own needs. You’ve learned from early on in life that food makes everything better. Food became your companion and comforter when you feel sad, lonely, depressed, anxious, or even when you’re happy and wanted to celebrate – because that’s what we do in this part of the world. You always loved food! Years later, you realized that you always think about food, are obsessed with dieting, but somehow, you never manage to take control of your food. Binge-eating becomes a regular occurrence, especially on the weekends or when life happens… Suddenly, you find out you’re a pre-diabetic and really don’t want to become an insulin-dependent type 2 diabetic. If this is you, then we certainly have a lot in common. Hi, my name is Nickie and welcome to my blog.
Food addiction, people pleasing, and diabetes are tightly related to one another. People pleasing causes you to do things you don’t want to do and you comfort yourself with food. Binging on your comfort foods, which are usually very high in carbohydrates, leaves you with high swings of insulin and glucose. If your body is running low on glucose, you get jittery and agitated, and so you eat carby foods again to feel better. As a result, you find yourself spending most of your time thinking about food and avoiding to feel bad – and the fix you know is to eat, eat, eat. Food fills that void in your chest. Food numbs. Food gives you a quick high.
A little about me, I have an undergrad degree in biology and work in a hospital where I plan continuing education sessions for our docs. Years ago, I found that I feel best when I eat a low-carb diet – no blood sugar swings, and you can find more on that in my blog. I felt great when I was eating this way, however, I still binged, especially on the weekends. Determined to find help for not being able to stop eating and my blood sugars bouncing all over the place when I did go off the deep end for days at a time, I checked myself into an eating disorder recovery center for a few months 2 years ago, where I was officially diagnosed with binge-eating disorder, done a bunch of therapy afterwards, attended Overeaters Anonymous meetings and worked the 12 steps, saw a few nutritionists, and educated myself on how to peel back all these protective layers I have built around me my entire life. I wanted to get to the bottom of why I couldn’t stop eating. I wanted to be off my blood-pressure medication and have normal blood sugar levels. I wanted to be able to say no to things I didn’t want to do. I wanted my life back.
Now, equipped with a bag jam-packed with nutritional tools and life strategies, I want to share with you how to practically apply these skills as I invite you to join me in a 1 year journey of reclaiming my life and maybe teach you some skills so you can do the same with yours.
You can start by reading my posts from the beginning or browse through some of the topics that speak to you at the moment. Also, check out the blogs and podcasts of the good folks that have helped me in my own journey.