Diabetes, Food Addiction, Hypertension, Low-Carb Cruise, Low-Carb Diet, Nutrition, People Pleasing

A Year of Putting Myself First

20160519_170133000_iOSFood addiction, pre-diabetes, hypertension, people pleasing… sound familiar?  This is the kind of stuff I’ve been struggling with for years – some of these conditions I have had since childhood.

In the past 2 years I entered an eating disorder recovery center for several months, where I was officially diagnosed with a binge-eating disorder. After “graduating” I did a few more months of therapy, saw a nutritionist, and spent some time in OA.

While in recovery, I learned a lot of new skills to deal with life, emotions, people, and how to take time to take care of myself. Unfortunately, somehow the busyness of life took over again and old habits snuck back in…

Putting Myself First Again

For the next 12 months, I want to practice putting myself first again. This is not at all a selfish goal. For most of my life I wanted to make sure everyone around me was taken care of and ignored my own needs. I had a hard time saying no to others, even if I didn’t want to do, whatever it was they wanted. Food always made everything better, but only for a short time. Never mind that my way of dealing with negative emotions, stress, or life in general made me gain weight, got me depressed, and eventually ran my blood pressure and glucose levels up. In treatment I learned to be more assertive, feel my emotions without needing food, and how to take time for myself without feeling guilty. My goal is to build on these new skills, strengthen my recovery in the coming year, and share the practical things I’m doing to get peace back in my life with you by my side.

Make Life Amazing Again

In the coming year you will see posts about how to handle difficult situations as an introvert, how to get pre-diabetes and, hopefully, high blood pressure back in check, what to do when tempted to go on a full-blown binge, and finally how to relax in the evenings and weekends with feeding your soul and not so much your stomach.

In the meantime, you can read some of my older posts below. I’ve written about how a low-carb lifestyle has helped with my binges, even before I entered official treatment.

Now Your Turn…

Along the way, I’d love to hear about your stories, your struggles, your victories. How do you practice self-care to bring a few moments of sanity in your life? Is there a specific topic you’d like me to cover? Do you have any questions?

You can comment below or send me a private message via my contact page.

*** Remember, I can only share my own experience and cannot give you professional advice. I’ll leave that to the specialists. ***

Hugs,

Nickie

 

Binging, Food Addiction, Low-Carb Diet

To Binge or Not to Binge

Decisions, decisions. The road on the left is ...It’s the weekend again and I got sucked into yet another binge-cycle.  I’ve been drinking a lot of diet coke lately and I did not want to drive all the way to our military post on a Saturday to get a bottle (I can’t stand the German version of diet coke, so I have to get it on post).  As my day progressed, I started getting the usual withdrawal symptoms – light headache, cravings for something sweet, etc.  I had visions of this wonderful slice of layered cake that I couldn’t get out of my head.  Eventually, I decided to act on the craving and went with my son to the Eiscafe for some ice-cream and then to the grocery store, where we bought dinner and a bunch of junk….  So you know how the rest of my day went.

It is now Sunday. So, again, I was at a junction:  continue low-carb or continue binge.  Hmmmm… I still  had some rolls for breakfast and left-over junk food that I didn’t eat yet.  The decision should’ve been quite easy:  get back to low-carb, of course. That’s when my cravings are at bay.  But then I looked at the other stuff and decided that I don’t want to miss out on the other goodies that I still had on the counter.  So the binge continued.

Update:  Monday, I was back on track.  Of course I was.  I’ve been playing this game for a long time now.  Eat on plan without trouble while I have a structured day at work, then binge on the weekend, because I always find an excuse to eat my beloved junk.  It doesn’t make sense to negate all the progress I’ve made during the week, but the lure is still too strong.